The skinny on the Madwoman

So I have written 3 posts and have yet to explain who I am...I am a 40 something single mom that works as a legal assistant . I have a young adult daughter and a dog ( the infamous CookieGirl already spoken of).
I have weighed over 3oo pounds for almost 20 years-wow that is deep. I becan to stress eat even more when I became sick early last year and unfortunately went misdiagnosed month after month. "Panic attack", "Acid reflux", "classic anxiety". My primary and his partners couldn't see past the fact that I was fat and didn't take my symptoms seriously. I would tell them how I felt, how I felt like my stomach was rising like on a rollercoaster ( not nausea). Sleep apnea- if I didn't hear those words once I heard them a hundred times.. Yeah, yeah, sleep apnea- I will take a test, but it has NOTHING to do with what I am talking to you about doc. You heard of stuck on stupid? Well my doctor was stuck on sleep apnea. Any question, any complaint, any anything- sleep apnea.
I got blank stares. I said " driving makes me feel weird-not carsick." More blank stares.
I said " Something went up my back and through the top of my head- sort of like when the Incredible Hulk turns into the Incredible Hulk". They thought I was crazy.
I said " my forehead feels weird"- like when do you ever "Feel" the muscles in your forehead ( for me never before). "My left eye feels strained-it actually hurts on the inside"..Bottomline, the doctors thought I was a hypochondriac- a very fat hypochondriac. I started to feel like I was going to die before anyone heard me. Each month the symptoms got worse. Which caused me to be upset and further confirm their diagnosis of panic attack.
Finally, the doctor sent me to a neurologist because he gave up on hearing my monthly complaints ( I have Atrial Fibrillation and go to the doctor every month to have my coumadin level checked).
Well, guess what- the fat hypochondriac was told that she had "classic" seizure symptoms and a brain MRI and a EEG(?) were performed and confirmed temporal lobe seizures!
Now don't get me wrong- I am not happy but boy was I happy!!!
Boy was I glad to go in to my primary with a diagnosis. There was something wrong with me! Yahoo! Please realize that playful banter aside, I am shaking my head in disgust as I write this..
Now my reason for getting into all of this is to talk about how my health is going to the crapper.
I am currently taking medication for :
High blood pressure
High Cholesterol
Atrial Fibrillation ( not weight related)
Seizures ( apparently menstrually related)
Oh yeah- and lucky me- I do have sleep apnea...so the dreaded CPAP machine.
Can it get any worse?
Yeah actually it can- thank goodness I do not have diabetes or any other disease- at this point my blood pressure,cholesterol and perhaps even the sleep apnea can be cleared up with weightloss.
CAN IT BE ANY PLAINER THAN THAT? No. SO THEN WHY CAN'T I DO THIS ONCE AND FOR ALL???
To be continued...( I am at work )